Procrastination, disappointment, stress, and confusion have been my constant companions recently. I've fallen behind on so many things I promised myself I would start and complete. I apologize to Erika and Jessica, two of my good friends. I have not been able to do anything with our roleplays recently because of the numerous prior occupations my parents have committed me to and such. I promise that as soon as time allows, I will start them back up. I barely have time to write this.

I miss so many things that I used to have. Mostly, I miss my best friend. But things change, people change, and the world keeps turning. I still love her, and I hope she knows it. That's all that matters. We don't see each other, we rarely talk, but it's okay because there, as far as I'm aware, are no ill feelings between us. I don't miss my old neighborhood, but I sort of miss my old house. I did live there for about eight years afterall. So many of my animals are buried there, so many wonderful memories bloomed there, and then again, I could say it has an equal amount of bad memories. But I suppose eveything does.

Things have been really different for me lately. I recently met quite a few new people. And I like all of them, and they all seem very nice. Sucky thing for me is I kinda sorta started liking one of them. He indirectly and directly pointed out that he liked me too. Then he tells me that I'm too young, but he stills thinks of me as a really good friend and he wants to continue to hang out and the like. It's gonna be weird and hard, but I don't wanna kill a newly beginning friendship, and so I won't.

I miss the past, I love the past, and I hate the past all in one. I am indifferent about the present. It's nowhere near good, and I know it's never really going to be. I am not looking forward to the future. It's already blatantly obvious that it will not be as I planned it, but nothing ever is. I think that's it for now.